-Cuck diaries-

This page is going to be for the little things in everyday life that take me back to a cuck experience or to the cuck state of mind. Sort of like triggers that after so many times as a submissive third you start to see the world differently. The way you see couples, you see beautiful women, who you react to women or other men talking about their love lives. And most importantly how you see yourself.

I want to go over how it gets hard to carry this mindset every day. There is something you can never talk about with anyone who doesn’t already know what you want. How do some women want a cuck only a few times a year. How couples will attack you because for them it wasn’t about chasing a feeling but about something new.

I recently ended five months of communications with a woman in South Carolina. I then started talking to a woman in Maine. She came twice to me in Tampa and I just came back from 2 weeks of living with her and her family.

When you are ” Seriously” attempting to meet women who are serious about the cuck service lifestyle you have to be able to emotionally separate yourself from the connection you feel as a cuck and the connection you feel as a man. I have gotten close to many women( none I had sex with). I have flown to over 8 cities and the same cities a few times after that. At the end of the day, when you are home you just have your memories and the porn to feel like you are understood. You have NO friends, family, or group to talk about your cuck fetish.

No one will understand why you like fuck-licking or cleanup duty. They will never understand why you just can’t just be a regular guy wanting to fuck some pussy. You meet women who you laugh with, cry with, and get trapped in the rain with. In the end, you lie to others about who they are. About your sex life.

You are forced to live in your own shadow. Even if I were to forget the cuck thoughts, and start dating as a “Regular” guy I would have to lie about 12 years of my romantic/sexual life. I hope if you read this you won’t have to either.